As promised, Here is the first chapter of Love Like Whirlwinds...
premier amant-
Zeal is what drew me to her
a fun-loving, comical, lively being she was.
Laughter & playfulness kept our alliance strong
we were allies in a forbidden love
we pioneered into my first official bond with a woman.
She was my wife and I was hers.
Passion for each other bloomed,
To abstain from the sensation of pure contentment…
was simply beyond the bounds of possibility.
It was truly the perfect young love.
...But in reality our relationship was just a façade
my yearning for romantic admiration was disacknowledged.
She didn’t have the capacity to reciprocate the devotion.
Our situation became catastrophic…
and then began the destruction.
…admiration, communication, recognition
were all distant.
Why would she deprive our relationship of key ingredients…nutrients?
It was a deficiency my heart could not endure.
How could she deprive our relationship?
She was fucking around.
…a fling, an affair..no
polygamist relations with two women & a penis!
& then had the audacity to attack me, incriminating me of fortification!
She inflicted so much pain
resentment, revenge…I despised her unfaithful ass!
The disproportionate amount of time I gave her was all in vain
my world shattered
my heart was sacrificed & for what?
Incentive was demolished
as was the tainted alliance, connection and friendship
all completely destroyed
As I attempted to recover from devastation
I was hit with some news I never could have imagined
She had gotten a vice…a virus
I chant gratefulness everyday that it wasn’t passed on to me.
soon her situation was publicly rumored
nothing more than karma, destined to be
yet in her mind she could only find one culprit...
to me she came bitterly
wanting to fight
place hands, brawl, go into combat
she wanted to engage in the very act I despised the most.
with me…the very soul who had loved her more than her own
mother, father or brother ever did and would.
her treatment..how she continued to deal with me
was malicious and ill hearted
the effects were extremely detrimental
I had become hallow,
disenchanted by the thought of love
I refused to ever let anyone commit the same infraction.
I refused to let anyone love me
I refused to love again…
When I wrote this it took soooo much out of me. My first girlfriend did some serious damage...but I've grown so much from that relationship & I'm grateful for her, she showed me exactly what I NEVERR wanted to run into again. I hope life is treating her well and I hope she has changed.
*Enjoyed Chapter One? Good. :)
Until next timee...
Live Life with Compassion :)(:
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