From her perspective:
My Perspective:
Now her eyes filled of sorrow.
She avoids eye contact with me...
I know she's afraid
I can't believe I made her like this...
She's such a lively being--
But every time she looks at me
I can see the pain in her eyes...
her eyes start to glaze over.
with an empty lifelessness in her voice she whispers,
"...i'm still in love with you"
I never intended to hurt you.
I hate the fact that I broke your heart.
I vowed to never hurt a woman...
I let you & myself down.
I'm Sorry.
*Live Life With Compassion!
Friday, June 18, 2010
Hidden Blog #1
There are several blogs I have..that have collected dust in my drafts.
Usually I leave them there because they are to full of emotion .. & I've never had expressing myself come easy...
but since I haven't submitted something in a while.. I'll take the easy way out & submit a draft.
This one is entitled People Only Treat You How You Allow Them To Treat You!...
It's my fault that you do NOT treat me like a QUEEN--
I don't ask it of you.
It's okay that you are NOT a CHARMER--
I don't require it of you.
It's my fault that I've become DISENCHANTED
I CANT hold you accountable for the disregard
You...still have some concepts to GRASP.
I'll wait patiently.
The fact that I choose to wait is the
PRECISE
reason as to why its my fault.
I'll continue to stick around in the hopes that one day you'll STOP
and EVALUATE how you live & behave.
I CANNOT blame you for not reflecting.
You're living in the SPOTLIGHT
I hope you don't crash VIOLENTLY from fame
but regardless
I'll be there to amend that TRAGEDY
You are a SUPERHERO in the eyes of everyone, but mine.
When the town stops chanting your name,
I'll be here...
But damn you for being so
FUCKING oblivious.
-FIN.
*As always,
Live Life With Compassion
Usually I leave them there because they are to full of emotion .. & I've never had expressing myself come easy...
but since I haven't submitted something in a while.. I'll take the easy way out & submit a draft.
This one is entitled People Only Treat You How You Allow Them To Treat You!...
It's my fault that you do NOT treat me like a QUEEN--
I don't ask it of you.
It's okay that you are NOT a CHARMER--
I don't require it of you.
It's my fault that I've become DISENCHANTED
I CANT hold you accountable for the disregard
You...still have some concepts to GRASP.
I'll wait patiently.
The fact that I choose to wait is the
PRECISE
reason as to why its my fault.
I'll continue to stick around in the hopes that one day you'll STOP
and EVALUATE how you live & behave.
I CANNOT blame you for not reflecting.
You're living in the SPOTLIGHT
I hope you don't crash VIOLENTLY from fame
but regardless
I'll be there to amend that TRAGEDY
You are a SUPERHERO in the eyes of everyone, but mine.
When the town stops chanting your name,
I'll be here...
But damn you for being so
FUCKING oblivious.
-FIN.
*As always,
Live Life With Compassion
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Body Modifications :D
If you know me, you know I LOVE body modifications.
I have 14 piercings and 6 retired piercings :/
- 4 lobes
- helix of right ear
- 4g in helix of left ear
- nostril
- septum
- tongue
- microdermal in my chest
- both nipples
- navel
- christina/isabelle ;)
& my retired piercings are
- 2 microdermals under my clavicle
- 2 microdermals in my back
- horizontal navel
- nape
But Goldie & body mods are old news, whats the point of this blog?
Well, now there's a new edition to my body mods, my first tattoo :D
It reads "Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo," This is the first line of the lotus sutra. The KING of all sutras :) The lotus sutra is the direct path to enlightenment.
But I'll break it down some more :)
Nam- Devotion; the action of practicing Buddhism
Myoho- Mystic Law; the essential law of life (& its phenomenal manifestations)
Renge- Lotus; the simultaneity of cause & effect
Kyo- Sutra; the truth expressed through the sound of one's voice.
This tattoo means so much to me. I feel like since I began studying Buddhism and embracing the ideologies and concepts -- not to mention since I received my Gohonzon-- I've been at peace, with myself, my life, the world. I've seen some hardships and the road has been bumpy, but I've received so much to be grateful for.
Everyday I do my Gongyo and I chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo and I feel empowered, I have so much strength and I simply love my journey to enlightenment.
As soon as I've learned enough I want to share Nichiren Buddhism to everyoneee! (I just need to have everything down so I represent for my Buddha ;] ) lol
*Oh yeahhh, I also bought my cousin Tiffany a tattoo as a late birthday present.
Here's the both of us & our 1st Tatts :D
:D
The creepy smile in the corner is our friend Xiomara & The white shirt is our artist Fabio aka 5Loco aka Fabo-Loco. Lmao.
Overall, my tattoo experience was lovely :)
Fabio was amazing. He's so funny, down to earth, a potheaddd, he used to follow Thai Buddhism (which I am unfamiliar with), something about mushrooms :O! and he is Columbian & Salvadorian? <-- I forget :( & made it a lovely 1st tattoo. And like any male he was hype to "pop" our cherries. I said chill dude, thats mad HETEROOO. Eww.
Lol. But it was a fun 3 hoursss XD Look...
*LMAO. Way to capture the Marijuana in the picture. Smh. Well I guess it gives the picture character..lol
:)
Ahaa, I hope you enjoyed my first tat ass much as I did. It wasn't bad at all. (*Tiffany had a completely different experience, She died a slow death with all those colors..so this is just my testimony..just because I was okay..does not mean you will...TATT WITH CAUTION!) ;)
As Always,
* Life Live With Compassion
I have 14 piercings and 6 retired piercings :/
- 4 lobes
- helix of right ear
- 4g in helix of left ear
- nostril
- septum
- tongue
- microdermal in my chest
- both nipples
- navel
- christina/isabelle ;)
& my retired piercings are
- 2 microdermals under my clavicle
- 2 microdermals in my back
- horizontal navel
- nape
But Goldie & body mods are old news, whats the point of this blog?
Well, now there's a new edition to my body mods, my first tattoo :D
It reads "Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo," This is the first line of the lotus sutra. The KING of all sutras :) The lotus sutra is the direct path to enlightenment.
But I'll break it down some more :)
Nam- Devotion; the action of practicing Buddhism
Myoho- Mystic Law; the essential law of life (& its phenomenal manifestations)
Renge- Lotus; the simultaneity of cause & effect
Kyo- Sutra; the truth expressed through the sound of one's voice.
This tattoo means so much to me. I feel like since I began studying Buddhism and embracing the ideologies and concepts -- not to mention since I received my Gohonzon-- I've been at peace, with myself, my life, the world. I've seen some hardships and the road has been bumpy, but I've received so much to be grateful for.
Everyday I do my Gongyo and I chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo and I feel empowered, I have so much strength and I simply love my journey to enlightenment.
As soon as I've learned enough I want to share Nichiren Buddhism to everyoneee! (I just need to have everything down so I represent for my Buddha ;] ) lol
*Oh yeahhh, I also bought my cousin Tiffany a tattoo as a late birthday present.
Here's the both of us & our 1st Tatts :D
:D
The creepy smile in the corner is our friend Xiomara & The white shirt is our artist Fabio aka 5Loco aka Fabo-Loco. Lmao.
Overall, my tattoo experience was lovely :)
Fabio was amazing. He's so funny, down to earth, a potheaddd, he used to follow Thai Buddhism (which I am unfamiliar with), something about mushrooms :O! and he is Columbian & Salvadorian? <-- I forget :( & made it a lovely 1st tattoo. And like any male he was hype to "pop" our cherries. I said chill dude, thats mad HETEROOO. Eww.
Lol. But it was a fun 3 hoursss XD Look...
*LMAO. Way to capture the Marijuana in the picture. Smh. Well I guess it gives the picture character..lol
:)
Ahaa, I hope you enjoyed my first tat ass much as I did. It wasn't bad at all. (*Tiffany had a completely different experience, She died a slow death with all those colors..so this is just my testimony..just because I was okay..does not mean you will...TATT WITH CAUTION!) ;)
As Always,
* Life Live With Compassion
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Aldo Nudes
I go to check my yahoo email account and I see an email from Aldo :)
Hoping its 50-70% off coupons, I open it ready to find a new shoe to add to my collection.
But, What do I see? This...
Hoping its 50-70% off coupons, I open it ready to find a new shoe to add to my collection.
But, What do I see? This...
Aldo Nudes? Nude?
To whom?
If I put these shoes on, the LAST thing they will do is blend in with my skin tone.
When it comes to Race, I'm afraid people aren't aware of the privilege they have. They can go into Aldo and get nude shoes and they WILL match their complexion.
I highly doubt they realize that they are indeed privileged, they walk in the store and expect "nude" color shoes, bras, etc to complement their skin, or blend in, they're entitled to that right? Right.
Sorry Aldo,
I am uninterested in your "Nude" shoes.
*Sorry if this was feisty.
-Live Life With Compassion :)(:
Friday, June 4, 2010
Same Song...Different Tune
I DO NOT make smart decisions.
I allowed this to get carried away.
I've had chances to fix the problem, but instead I dwell in the misfortune.
I play the victim who has an epiphany and is suddenly liberated,
but its nothing more than a facade.
This false sense of me taking control often sets me 1,000 steps backward.
I can conjure a master plan for anything I want, but when something needs to be done I haven't a clue.
I often sit and think, think, think about it.
the thoughts always tear me apart...
damn I should have a handle on this shit.
I see the problem is me.
surprise.
the solution is obvious, but sadly I'm oblivious.
"Get it together!"
I will. I have to do better.
*Self-Reflection
-EDIT-
I just finished my evening Gongyo and the fourth silent prayer touched my heart...
"I pray to bring forth Buddhahood from within my life and accomplish my own human revolution, change my destiny and fulfill my wishes in the present and the future."
~I am so serious when I say Buddhism is my strength. This personal prayer is exactly what I needed at the moment.
-Live Life With Compassion :)
I allowed this to get carried away.
I've had chances to fix the problem, but instead I dwell in the misfortune.
I play the victim who has an epiphany and is suddenly liberated,
but its nothing more than a facade.
This false sense of me taking control often sets me 1,000 steps backward.
I can conjure a master plan for anything I want, but when something needs to be done I haven't a clue.
I often sit and think, think, think about it.
the thoughts always tear me apart...
damn I should have a handle on this shit.
I see the problem is me.
surprise.
the solution is obvious, but sadly I'm oblivious.
"Get it together!"
I will. I have to do better.
*Self-Reflection
-EDIT-
I just finished my evening Gongyo and the fourth silent prayer touched my heart...
"I pray to bring forth Buddhahood from within my life and accomplish my own human revolution, change my destiny and fulfill my wishes in the present and the future."
~I am so serious when I say Buddhism is my strength. This personal prayer is exactly what I needed at the moment.
-Live Life With Compassion :)
ASL
American Sign Language :)
I've wanted to learn sign language for years, and I even tried to steal my cousins Signing For Dummies. Lol. Today I decided to take some initiative and teach myself :D
I simply searched "Learn Sign Language" in Google and started studying. I started at maybe 10pm and now I've learned the alphabet, numbers 1-10, how to sign: Are you deaf?, My name is.., What is your name?, Nice to meet you and Thank you for being my friend!
:D
Lol. I'm so excited. I may stop here for today.. or continue...not sure yet.
*Until Next Time...
Live Life With Compassion <3
I've wanted to learn sign language for years, and I even tried to steal my cousins Signing For Dummies. Lol. Today I decided to take some initiative and teach myself :D
I simply searched "Learn Sign Language" in Google and started studying. I started at maybe 10pm and now I've learned the alphabet, numbers 1-10, how to sign: Are you deaf?, My name is.., What is your name?, Nice to meet you and Thank you for being my friend!
:D
Lol. I'm so excited. I may stop here for today.. or continue...not sure yet.
*Until Next Time...
Live Life With Compassion <3
Syrup & Honey
Don’t you being wasting all your money
On syrup and honey
Because I’m sweet enough
Don’t you be using every minute
On making a living
Because we got our love
Listen to me, 1,2,3
Baby, baby, baby spend your time on me
Don’t you be out all night long
Leaving me all alone
Because I, I need your love
Don’t you be spending everyday working away
Because I’m waiting for you
Listen to me, 1,2,3
Baby, baby, baby spend your time on me
Spend it, spend it, spend your time on me
Please baby
Mmmm
Please baby
<3
-My Dearest Jew Jew Bean put me on to this song. Duffy is greattt :)
*Live Life With Compassion
Deepwater Horizon Incident-Gulf of Mexico BP Oil Spill
- The worst oil spill in America's history.
We have been dealing with this spill since April 20th, and there has been an estimated 46 milllion gallons of oil spewed throughtout the Gulf since.
I usually give people the benifit of the doubt and I would say something like, "It was an unfortunate event and... it's everyone's nightmare" But I'm disgusted in ALL oil companies.
So since 1989, All of you oil companies ( Exxon, Shell, Bp & etc.) have been drilling deeper & deeper and boosting of your 10,000+ ft deep oil wells--So from all that profit, all that bank, that the richest companies in the world have made ($21.1 to $45.2 Billion), they all decided to invest in ways to drill deeper, instead of contributing monies to containment awareness and cleanup technology.
^^^Where was the prevention of oil blobs? Where was the emergency clean-up plan?
So you all were proud of your deep big wells of oil, but you didn't have NOT a plan for a possible oil spills? You didn't plan for the possibilities of a spill? Don't lie & say you did Mister Bp...I've seen your "Oil spill response Failures!"
^^^ These little "booms" aren't doing a DAMN thing. Mister Bp, you're using that to try & tame a 46 gallon spill? Please. Your efforts are dispicable. Inadequate.
&&&
As for the "Deepwater Horizon Oil Spill being Obama's Katrina".
*Shut thee **** up. Please spare ME the madness!
Let's make this clear, when it comes to Katrina there was a lack of response to a HUMAN TRAGEDY. An Africian American Tragedy. Let's not go down that path.
Obama is in charge of making sure Bp cleans up the mess they made, the fact that Bp was completely unprepared is Obama's fault because...? I'm waiting.
Let me put it in perspective for the slower ones...
Obama = suspending exploration drilling off the coasts (including Alaska and Virginia) and overseeing operation clean-up.
Bp = responsible for the spill, responsible for the clean-up.
So people gettt itttt rigghhttt!
*Sigh
As always,
Live Life With Compassion <3
We have been dealing with this spill since April 20th, and there has been an estimated 46 milllion gallons of oil spewed throughtout the Gulf since.
I usually give people the benifit of the doubt and I would say something like, "It was an unfortunate event and... it's everyone's nightmare" But I'm disgusted in ALL oil companies.
So since 1989, All of you oil companies ( Exxon, Shell, Bp & etc.) have been drilling deeper & deeper and boosting of your 10,000+ ft deep oil wells--So from all that profit, all that bank, that the richest companies in the world have made ($21.1 to $45.2 Billion), they all decided to invest in ways to drill deeper, instead of contributing monies to containment awareness and cleanup technology.
^^^Where was the prevention of oil blobs? Where was the emergency clean-up plan?
So you all were proud of your deep big wells of oil, but you didn't have NOT a plan for a possible oil spills? You didn't plan for the possibilities of a spill? Don't lie & say you did Mister Bp...I've seen your "Oil spill response Failures!"
^^^ These little "booms" aren't doing a DAMN thing. Mister Bp, you're using that to try & tame a 46 gallon spill? Please. Your efforts are dispicable. Inadequate.
&&&
As for the "Deepwater Horizon Oil Spill being Obama's Katrina".
*Shut thee **** up. Please spare ME the madness!
Let's make this clear, when it comes to Katrina there was a lack of response to a HUMAN TRAGEDY. An Africian American Tragedy. Let's not go down that path.
Obama is in charge of making sure Bp cleans up the mess they made, the fact that Bp was completely unprepared is Obama's fault because...? I'm waiting.
Let me put it in perspective for the slower ones...
Obama = suspending exploration drilling off the coasts (including Alaska and Virginia) and overseeing operation clean-up.
Bp = responsible for the spill, responsible for the clean-up.
So people gettt itttt rigghhttt!
*Sigh
As always,
Live Life With Compassion <3
Terrified
I just awoke from the Scariest nigthmare.
I can't type at this time, I'm so shaken up.
I just have to keep my eyes open.
*Chanting
*Nam-myoho-renge-kyo
I can't type at this time, I'm so shaken up.
I just have to keep my eyes open.
*Chanting
*Nam-myoho-renge-kyo
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Jesús Torrealba
One morning after finishing my Gongyo (morning prayers) -- I was reciting my Gongyo online with YouTube to help with pronunciation,-- I decided to search Kosen-Rufu (world peace) images in the hopes of finding something to tatt :) I don't have any tattoos yet and I still want to get my Lotus & Nam-myoho-renge-kyo, but I just want to have all the tatts I may want in mind so I can work on detail and making them the fliest tatts ever :D All of my tatts will be about Nichiren Buddhism, it is my strength in this world aka the only thing worth tattooing on my body.
(Pshh, Don't you hate when girls have their name tatted on them? Come on, you couldn't be more creative? They have name plates and rings for that...)
But as usual, I digress. While searching for kosen-rufu images, I came across thee most beautiful website of Buddhist paintings and drawings. The artist is Jesus Torrealba. (All pictures in this post are the work of Jesus Torrealba, I own none of the rights to his work) ;] This man truly has talent and his paintings are soooo beautiful, they touched my heart and I really have an appreciation for how intricate and well thought out his paintings are. I can't stress enough about how fly they are! Well enough of me talking about it, I'll show you what I'm talking aboutt :)
These are AMAZING! So very breath taking...I tell you this man has talent.
***Now if you were wondering why there is an adult content warning on my page, here comes the answerrr***
After seeing Torrealba's work, I googled his name trying to find more of his work.
Oh did I everr..
When you google his name you DO NOT find his Buddhist artwork, what you find can be something like...
You catch my drift!
So, yes he is veryyyy talented. But I think I like his Buddhist pieces a taddd bit more than the erotica paintings. Nevertheless, I'm happy I found his work, because now I have sooo many ideas for my future tattoos :D
Until Next Time...
Live Life With Compassion <3
(Pshh, Don't you hate when girls have their name tatted on them? Come on, you couldn't be more creative? They have name plates and rings for that...)
But as usual, I digress. While searching for kosen-rufu images, I came across thee most beautiful website of Buddhist paintings and drawings. The artist is Jesus Torrealba. (All pictures in this post are the work of Jesus Torrealba, I own none of the rights to his work) ;] This man truly has talent and his paintings are soooo beautiful, they touched my heart and I really have an appreciation for how intricate and well thought out his paintings are. I can't stress enough about how fly they are! Well enough of me talking about it, I'll show you what I'm talking aboutt :)
These are AMAZING! So very breath taking...I tell you this man has talent.
***Now if you were wondering why there is an adult content warning on my page, here comes the answerrr***
After seeing Torrealba's work, I googled his name trying to find more of his work.
Oh did I everr..
When you google his name you DO NOT find his Buddhist artwork, what you find can be something like...
So, yes he is veryyyy talented. But I think I like his Buddhist pieces a taddd bit more than the erotica paintings. Nevertheless, I'm happy I found his work, because now I have sooo many ideas for my future tattoos :D
Until Next Time...
Live Life With Compassion <3
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